Hey Zeto, I'm preeeetty sure that the equation you have there has no known solution... How'd you end up getting it?
My math story: I never paid attention at secondary school, but did alright enough to proceed to take Math and Further Math at A level. I was at the "I really don't care" years of my life back then, and didn't learn much at all. I actually remember getting 0% on a math test! Once I left full time education and entered full time work, I found the space I needed to actually appreciate how nifty a lot of mathematics (and physics) was. I was far happier studying it on my own terms. I worked quiet night shifts, so I'd usually bring my own notes to work and study to pass the time. After a year of that, I was lucky enough to get into University, where I learned a lot more. Uni is now over for me, but I still study most of my free time. I just like math. I'm combing through two math-heavy books atm
I guess the moral of that story is to not be discouraged if you do badly in math at school. School is usually oppresive in the sense that you spend so much time trying to ingest the sylabus that you forget that it can actually be fun. There is little room for creativity, little room for freedom, when it comes to mainstream education. Do your own thing, study weird and obscure things, piss about with equations and see how far you can take them. Try and break them, even.