Lucky Fire, I mostly stay here for my friends, and what I can do to help them. Sure, I have a few things that I can do here, but I don't consider that as much of a priority as helping my friends out.
I can certainly understand where you're coming from, though. I'm glad I caught you when I did; I wondered where you've been. From what I can tell, you feel like there's not much for you to do here and that people don't think all too well of you (not negative per se, but probably not exactly positive either). That is understandable.
I do notice that, despite your moments of doubt, ultimately you do come back. If I may ask, why is that? I think answering that question for yourself may say more about you than you think.