I am sorry for your loss. I'm not goin to try to sugar coat it for you, everyone has their own way of dealing with death. I was 12 when I lost my Dad to cancer and closed in to myself for a long while. My family respected my way of dealing with it and in time with the support of family and friends I was able to get through it. Even more recently, this past Friday, I had to put my 13 year old dog to sleep. It hurt, I felt like I lost my oldest child. Like I said, we all deal with death in our own ways, just dont shut out your friends or family, they can be a tremendous source of strength. Good Luck.
Mike